I have to share a secret…
Rich and I went to Chicago last week to talk with a doctor about the GIFT procedure. After much conversation, we felt that this last step was something that we should at least look into. We went for the appointment and talked with the doctor, met with the IVF/GIFT coordinator and Rich and I both had an exam. We liked the clinic a lot, but wanted some time to think about what we wanted to do. We were not sure if we would go ahead with the GIFT procedure or not.
Today I received a call from the clinic. I was fully expecting it to be the IVF/GIFT coordinator to discuss the plan. It was a nurse calling to tell me that I had an abnormal pap smear and I needed to schedule a biopsy. She said that no further infertility treatment could be done until there was further information about the abnormal cells that were found on my cervix.
I…am…terrified.
My mom had cervical cancer and had to have a hysterectomy when she was about my age. She found out through an abnormal pap when she was undergoing treatment for infertility. That is where my brain goes immediately. Is the same thing going to happen to me? Has God been telling me NO about having another child and I have not been listening and so now He is going to take my uterus from me to drive home his point?
I'm sure that Rich is terrified as well. He lost his mom to lymph node cancer that spread to her breast. He does not like the word cancer, especially when it is being talked about regarding his bride.
Please pray for me. Please pray for Rich. It has been a tough week. There are a few other things going on and I have a cold and we need your prayers.
5 comments:
Definately praying for you. You've been on my mind a lot.
Oh dearest Kari,
You are in my prayers and on my heart.
Oh Father, please give my friend Kari and her husband Rich a sense of peace that YOU love them and are with them. Help them to see You as a God of love, compassion, faithfulness and truth. We ask that this abnormal pap smear will be nothing. We ask for healing in all things. Amen.
Hi Kari, I think you and Misty are twins :)! I guess I have failed in my upbringing! :) First of all God does NOT work that way. I promise you that is not HIS motive. AND an abnormal pap does not mean cancer. There is so many other things it could be. Give me a call if you can. I will leave for church tonight about 6:30 EST and will be home about 9:30 PM. If not tonight maybe tomorrow after 9 PM. I have had you on my mind so much lately. God has been revealing so much to me and showing me why I have been having some difficulty dealing with some things. I really want to share them with you. I love you and so does God!
I'm praying for you. I come back each day looking for an update. I'm ready for good news.
D
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