Are we there yet??

We STILL do not have our license.  I truly just cannot believe it.  I never, in a million years, thought that I would be close to December 1st and not have any new children in our home.  Never did I think that I would be this close to December 1st and not even have our license.  The last communication I had with them was on November 15th, I was finally in touch with our licensing worker.  She said that the paperwork was sent to her supervisor in Champaign (yeah, yeah, the check's in the mail) and that we should hear news soon.  She said that if they were to get a referral that matched our criteria that we would be considered for placement.  I'm not sure I believe that.  I think the thing that frustrates me the most is that I feel the licensing worker is not being honest with me.  If she would have given me realistic time lines in the beginning, I wouldn't be so frustrated.  She makes promises, to appease me I'm sure, but then she cannot follow up with her end of the bargain.  I would much rather her just be honest and say "the paperwork will take four weeks to process from this point', instead of 'we will rush things through for you and scan things in and you will be licensed in two days'.  Then hide from me and not return any of my phone calls.  I would have much rather her tell us to go ahead and take the 9 week PRIDE course 40 minutes from our house because it will take six months to obtain a license instead of telling us that if we break our necks and pull 16 hour days and do the classes in 5 weeks she's sure that we can be licensed shortly after the class finishes.  Here we are eight weeks after we completed our PRIDE training and we STILL don't have even a license!!!  I can't help but wonder how long it will be from the time we actually get our license until we have a placement.  I wonder if this agency even gets referrals.  If they handle their referrals anything like they handle their licensing, I'm sure DCFS doesn't want to deal with them and would rather give referrals to other agencies.

I have called both the licensing agent and her supervisor today and left messages for an update.

I was praying this morning about this situation.  Again praying for patience, again praying for children that are currently in foster care and children that are in their homes but being abused or neglected.  I was praying for children that are out there that will be coming into our home and then I wondered if that will even happen at all.  I wondered if all of this delay is just God's way of telling us that these are not the plans He has for us.  And I prayed, again, for His guidance and His will to be done.  I prayed that He would make me His tool and to simply have me ready.  Ready to do His work, whatever that may be. 

I pray that when He calls I am ready.