He never lets go

I thought I should post an update today. Surprisingly, I have quite a few people that follow this blog. Please feel free to comment, I would love to know who you are and where you are from! I wanted to let you all know that I have peed on everything in my possession this weekend, and I have no HPTs left. I am being stubborn and refusing to buy any more. My temp is still down and I am crampy, so AF is surely on her way. If she does not show up by Wed or Thurs I will go in for the beta. I feel a bit better today, I have felt the Lord’s comfort and peace surrounding me.

Going into church on Sunday I did not want to sing. Some of know, some of you don’t, that I am on my church’s Worship Team and help lead singing on Sunday mornings. I felt super emotional, I knew it was going to be tough getting up there and putting on a happy face. I was feeling so upset and sorry for myself, and I knew that one of the songs that we were singing was going to be especially difficult for me to make it through. As the service began, our Pastor started out with the morning this-and-that and then he said something along these lines… “We will worship the Lord this morning through our music and through the lesson, we will worship Him because He is worthy and He deserves to be worshiped, and in turn He will bless us.” Those words went into my ears and soaked into my hurting heart and I was reminded. I was reminded that God has called me to honor Him with my voice and Sunday morning was not about me and how crummy I was feeling, and what a pity is that my HPT was negative again this morning. Sunday morning was about serving the Lord, and being obedient to honor Him with the voice that He has given me. So I sang.

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Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won’t turn back I know You are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Chorus:Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know You here on the earth

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

Chorus:Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go Lord, You never let go of me

I don’t like being emotional when I sing, I don’t like to let the tears fall down my cheeks, because everyone is watching. Only a few escaped on Sunday, and I’m sure that only those that know me best noticed. The Lord got me through the song, and He knew that I needed to be reminded…

As the day went on, I felt his blessing. Anytime I hear that the Lord is going to bless me, inevitably I think that means a baby. Sunday, He blessed me with enough peace to get me through Sunday. Monday, He has given me enough peace to get me through Monday.

Praise God that He never lets go of me, because without his comfort and strength, I can't imagine where I would be. Thank you to all of you that have been praying for me. I truly appreciate it.