I have canceled all appointments with the RE, I have put down the thermometer and the fertility monitor for the time being. Our focus right now needs to be 100% on rebuilding our marriage. Once that is stable, we will reevaluate TTC. Surprisingly, that is ok with me. Once your world is rocked to the bitter core, you put things into perspective. Although I once thought that my life would not be complete until I had another child, I now know that my life is complete, as long as I have Rich by my side as my husband and best friend, and as the father to the beautiful children that God has blessed me abundantly with and as long as I always put my faith and my future fully in the hands of the God that is the only one to control it all.

The journey to a baby is now on hold until further notice. Right now I need peace that passes all understanding from my Father for many other areas in my life. I pray that those prayers are answered over time, and perhaps we will visit the prospect of another child again sometime in the future.